by Anura Guruge
Some Related Posts:
1. First GSA shift at State House — May 13, 2013.
2. Fall Foliage Updater as GSA — Oct. 2, 2013.
3. Back to GSA — July 14, 2012.
4. GSA montage — Nov. 21, 2012.
++++ Search ‘GSA‘ & ‘Ambassador‘ for more posts >>>>
Click to ENLARGE.
I got the above letter and the lifetime membership card about a month ago.
To say I was delighted would be an understatement. I love being a Granite State Ambassador (GSA) and have done since day one 13 years ago.
It also made me feel very humble and GUILTY. Though I do a fair amount of volunteering (and yesterday, again, I agreed at short notice, to help ‘Great Waters‘ with lugging stuff), and the ‘Thank You Cruise‘ by Pro Portsmouth on Tuesday kind of brought it home again, I know, acutely, that I don’t put in enough hours as a GSA — though they understand. I just don’t have the time, and I don’t say that lightly.
Of late I have kind of realized that I have an addiction problem! I am addicted to writing. I had known for decades that I had a physical need to write, near daily. I get agitated when I am not writing — agitated in that I want to write. Yes, I write, basically transcribe paragraphs, in ‘my mind’ all the time. That is the one thing that helps me keep sane. I can write to my brain whenever, wherever. Sometimes I space out, a tad, when I do that — and it bugs Deanna. The addiction is getting worse. I know that. And that is the problem with volunteering. I can deal with the Pro Portsmouth and Great Waters ‘shifts’ because they are concentrated and involves physical work. Most of the GSA ‘work’ requires me to drive at least 40 minutes one way and then some amount of standing around smiling not doing much. Right now I can’t cope with it. Yep, another weakness. Brain keeps on racing … screaming. Yes, of course, I can deal with it. But this is where the addiction kicks in. I don’t want to deal with it. I want to write. In my head I am two books ahead. And therein is the crux of the problem.
I realize that I am not the only one afflicted by this dreadful ailment. There have been others and there are others. I know I need to get this under control. I keep on promising myself that I will get better ‘after the next book’! I am deluding myself. In theory, on Sunday, I finished another book. Yes, it is DONE. It is written. But now comes the HARD part. The proofing, re-proofing, fixing stuff, indexing, figures etc. And ALL the time I am writing two books in my head. They are screaming to be put down on paper.
Thank YOU, GSA.
To say that I feel honored just won’t even scratch the surface.
I do wear the GSA shirt, with enormous pride, when I do some of my ad hoc volunteering. The blog pictures that I am currently using actually has me wearing that shirt because it was taken when I (actually we) volunteered at the ‘Laconia Airport Open House‘ last year.
GSA is a great organization. Wonderful people. A very welcoming family. You should check them out … click here. The mandatory training you get is valuable and a load of fun. Not sure what the program is these days but in 2001 I had to go through 2 full days of training — in Gilford. Had a ball.
Well, enough said. Thank YOU, GSA. If nothing else I will again be a Foliage Updater in Fall.